This has been playing on ny mind these past few weeks when ive been feeling a bit low. Ive been feeling like the worst mum ever to my little twinkles.
I have no patience and ive been shouting at the girls. Ive been telling them off when theyve been misbehaving by hitting each other, pushing each other and rowing with one and other. Ive been telling them off for climbing on our nest of tables and squirting milk all over the tv and tv cabinet- oh and how they love squirting milk everywhere. I always seem to struggle to turn the pages of their books recently as theyre glued together with milk!! Ive been saying No! Everytime the girls start playing with the brush & mop in the kitchen. I get frustrated with the girls when they dont nap at the same time just because that means i wont have a break all day from them.
To some people i might sound harsh, bitter & the worlds worst mum but do you know what? After all the thinking ive done, i dont think im a bad mum at all. I discipline my girls – theres nothing wrong with that, im just trying to teach them the rights and wrongs! I might give them too much milk but they love it, who am i to take that away from them? They still take noonoo’s (dummy) as thats their comfort. Ive quit working to be home with them. I might be a rubbish person at the moment with the way im feeling but i dont think im a rubbish mum, i think im the best mum in the world– to my girls! It may not be the way you bring your kids up but its the way i bring mine up. Everyones different, theres no right or wrong way to bring up your kids. And i believe im bringing my kids up the right way for them and me! So yeah i do believe that im the best mum in the world…. to my little twinkles😊
So, Dont try to be like other mums and dads you see, just be you! Do it your way!! Be the best mum/dad in the world to your kids. I bet you already are in their eyes anyway. Just be you
Yep thats right, 24 whole years on this planet.. wow! And in that 24 years a lot has happened for the worst and for the better!
Ive lost special people that meant everything to me, ive battled with mental health, been a victim of bullying, lost friends & gained new ones, gained qualifications & my driving license, Been at rock bottom, Gained a Fiancé & two gorgeous girls & Bought our home. It just shows that if you want the rainbow you must put up with the rain, and oh wow have i had to put up with an awful lot of rain, but look where i am today! I remember when i had my sixteenth birthday i felt so lucky and blessed to still be here to celebrate, because that year had been the toughest year of my life battling with my mental health issues. I had been self harming a lot that year and also i also overdosed. So being here on my 24th Birthday, celebrating with my family – I really am the luckiest girl in the world, i really am! I have everything i have ever wanted in life, my own family. So qould i go through all of that sh*t again to have what i have today? Definitely, 100%
So now the depressive bit has been said, my 24th Birthday wasnt anything special really. Jamie was in work all day from 6.30am until 5pm and the girls weren’t well all day and slept for 2 and a half hours in the day. But do you know what made my Birthday so special to me? I had my family around me. After jamie came home from work thats when i really started to celebrate and thats when it actually felt like my Birthday. We had chinese food which was lovely and sat in front of the tv watching ‘orange is the new black’ which ive started to get in to, i cant get enough of it (currently on season 2 so dont spoil it for me ha). Jamie even got me a cake. Anyone who knows me knows that i hate fuss and i hate the ‘Happy Birthday’ song being sung to me. But yesterday it was so special to me when Jamie came out with a cake full of candles singing to me. It was just the four of us. Jamie, Me, Emilia & Gracie. And the girls helped me to blow the candles. All day i thought, what a boring day, but it wasnt. I had a lovely day. Even if my birthday only started when Jamie came home from work. I had such a special day/night and i cant thank Jamie enough for going into so much trouble for me.
From my little monkeys i had a set of Pyjamas, pair of slippers, box of black magic chocolates, pair of lounge socks, Zoella’s first book, and also a disney anti stress colouring book which i LOVE and from my Jamie i had a lovely bunch of flowers! Ive been spoilt this year and a lot of thought went in to it by Jamie.
So, if you’re reading this Jamie, Thank you so so much for a lovely Birthday. You have spoilt me rotten and i feel like the luckiest girl in the world to have you! I would be lost without you. You came at that point in my life when i needed you the most and i cant thank you enough. Thank you for just being you and thank you for treating me like a princess everytime. I Love You So Much xxx
So after all the build up for Halloween 2015, it has been and gone, done & dusted and we can start to look forward to Christmas-Christmas being the most wonderful time of the year!!
This Halloween was so much different to last years and more fun. The girls were only 6 months old last year so we didn’t really do much only dress them up in pumpkin babygrows. They didn’t understand what was going on so i didn’t really bother to do much really and we were living with relatives last Halloween so i couldn’t really do much. But this year, This year was different. I carved my first EVER pumpkin!! and i think i did a pretty good job if i do say so myself! I also made some biscuits decorated with Halloween theme and cupcakes too. and of course we dressed the girls up as Skeletons. i absolutely loved their outfits, they were so girly and wore them all day. we went to relatives houses trick or treating and the girls had so much fun! but at the end of the day we were all knackered and ready for bed by 7pm!!
I’m not really one for Halloween but this year Ive tried to be more involved in it for the girl’s sake and I’ve had so much fun, well we all have as a family. Next Halloween will be better again!!
So last night we got the keys!!! We are officially HOMEOWNERS! We actually OWN a house, scary but so sooo exciting!
I honestly dont know where to start with the unpacking & building! We have so much to do.The carpets are going in tomorrow then all week from tomorrow it will be building, unpacking & sorting every day! So excited!! Me and Jamie just cannot wait to settle in our new home! Its the first ‘home’ the girls will have had really because we moved out of our rented house when the girls were only 4 months old and since then we have been living with relatives!
Im just so excited to do the girls room because ive never done a room for them before. Its going to be so girly!
The house is a 3 bedroom terraced house situated in a little village in North wales. The views are just amazing. The only issue we would have is when its snowing in our area, we would get it bad because were high up! But cant complain! So yeah, just a little update with the house situation! The whole process of buying a house is finally over and we got there in the end. Its been a very stressful few months with the process but we can finally say we own our home now!!
On the 9th of April 2014 at 10am i was booked in for an induction as the girls hadn’t made an appearance and i was 37+4 weeks pregnant. We were showed to my bed at the maternity ward and were explained the induction process. I was then put on a monitor so they could keep a close eye on me and the twinkles. The midwife then went on to explain all the people that would be present at the birth which would be : 2 midwives, a doctor and an anaesthetist. Wasn’t i lucky to have an audience? lol!
At around 12pm the midwife inserted a propess (induction) and from then on it was a waiting game for something to happen. at approx 1pm i was having contraction after contraction. I was in complete agony!!! It was visiting hours at the ward and my mum & dad came to see me.. they couldn’t understand why I was in so much pain at such an early stage of labour. I had to let the midwife know!! she had a look at the monitor and noticed that i was hyperstimulating meaning that i was having contraction after contraction without any breaks in-between. They made a decision to take the propess out as it wasn’t agreeing with my body and the hyperstimulating could make the twins distressed. It was a huge relief to get it out. It felt like my whole underneath was on fire!! After taking the propess out it was a huge relief!! They agreed to let me be until the next morning to take me over to the labour ward.
The next morning came and i was transferred onto the labour ward to break my waters as they didn’t go by themselves during the night. The doctor/consultant then put me on a drip to encourage labour. The contractions soon came and gas and air was needed..Oh how i loved the gas and air!! As the contractions got stronger I needed stronger pain relief. The midwife advised me to have an epidural which is strongly advised with multiple births in case they need to rush you into theatre in an emergency.
The anaesthetist was called to my room and inserted the epidural into my spine which was very unpleasant- I needed the gas and air for that bit!! Im such a wuss!!
An hour or so after i could feel pain on one side of my body but not the other half which meant the epidural failed!! They had to recall the anaesthetist to my room to relocate the epidural into my spine which worked wonders! The contractions were coming strong but of course between the gas and air and the epidural i was high as a kite and felt no pain. I even slept for 2 hours straight after my epidural and had to be woken up to be examined by the consultant. I had reached 7cm (Woohoo!!) and was told to push to try and encourage Twin 1 (Emilia) to move down, i managed to push to 9cm with one push then Emilia started to get distressed, her oxygen levels were low and her heart rate was sky high.They couldn’t take any risks so the doctor and midwives made a decision to take me into theatre for an assisted delivery. I was completely unaware of what was going on as i was so drowsy and high from all the drugs they had given me. They placed me on the operating table and got their tools ready. My partner then told me they were no longer going to give me an assisted delivery and that they needed to do an emergency C-section without trying the assisted delivery as Emilia was so distressed they didn’t want to risk anything!
Jamie sat with me the whole time in theatre and was brilliant with me! He kept talking to me and assuring me that everything was going to be okay. The next thing i know My beautiful twin girls had entered the world:) tears were shed and I got to see one of the girls quickly until I threw up!! They took me to recovery where I got to hold my girls for the first time. It was the most magical thing in the world.. those 2 beautiful babies were mine. I couldn’t believe it.
Emilia Kate Hughes was born at 03.39am weighing 5lb 11.5oz measuring 46cms and Gracie Mae Hughes was born a minute later at 03.40am weighed 6lb 9oz measuring 52cms on the 11th of April 2014. I’m pretty gutted that it ended in an emergency c-section as i went through all the labour which lasted 15hours+ but I’m so glad that they arrived safely , I am well and truly blessed.
After the delivery I had to stay in hospital for 3 days then was allowed home to continue my recovery at home and to start our new family life. 🙂
Hello:) I am Melanie, I’m a stay at home twin mum to my little 1 year old twinkles – Emilia Kate & Gracie Mae. I am also a Fiancee to my wonderful Other half- Jamie who i have been with for 3 years – coming to 4.
Jamie & I met on Facebook, Not very romantic i must say but it worked. he asked me on a date and since then we are literally inseparable. we are literally joint to the hip. i love him with all my heart, he has helped me overcome a lot of things and i truly cannot thank him enough for that – anyway ill stop being soppy now.. I’m not always this soppy, I promise LOL! We moved in together after a year, just a rented house, then found found out 4 months later than we were pregnant! little did we know there were 2 little people in there!! we decided to move closer to my family as they could help with the girls once they were here.
Two years after being together, Emilia & Gracie entered the world. It was the most magical moment of our lives. They have completed us. we went from a family of 2 to 4 and i couldn’t be happier, yes they have tested me.. oh yes, but they are amazing little people. they are such characters and i would be absolutely lost without them. its been a crazy year, emotionally and physically. i never knew i could go on with the day after just 3 hours sleep! but once you have children you can do things you never imagined you could. i have achieved so much in a year, having one baby scared me but 2? that was a whole new level, but I’m so proud how i have handled motherhood :)*Pats herself on the back*
Five months after the girls were born, Jamie went down on one knee and asked me to marry him. i hate fuss so the way he did it was just lovely and our little way, i It wasn’t anything fancy but to me it was absolutely perfect and exactly how i wanted it 🙂 ill do a post soon about our engagement 🙂
When Emilia & Gracie were 4 months old we had to make the tough decision of moving in with relatives because we couldn’t afford the rent on our home, well we could but we didn’t have a lot of money leftover for shopping, clothing etc. so we have been in my parents house since. it has been the hardest year. The girls still share a room with us since birth and its starting to affect us now as a family as we need our own home. Three years into our relationship and we are in the process of buying our own house! We cannot wait to move in, but it seems to be taking forever!! But, we are nearing the end now though . I cant wait to be a proper family in our own home!